2:20pm, 4 Slices

I was gazing at my model diet chart today, trying to figure out what I should have for lunch, and I realized I could have a grilled cheese sandwich with tomato. And it felt like a revelation. I could even cut up the rest of the tomato and have it with a little salt and olive oil if I wanted. I’ve never been so excited about lunch.

I have never been on a diet in my life, so actually watching what I eat is a brand-new experience, and a strange one. I started paying close attention to food once I got pregnant—really counting portions of calcium, veggies, and fruits and eliminating high-mercury fish—and I felt like I’d worked out a really healthy, satisfying system. For months I’ve been bragging about how I’ve been eating so healthily, especially thanks to the farmer’s market. I know it’s not my fault that I’m temporarily glucose intolerant, but it is a bit defeating after feeling like I’d been doing so well at nourishing the baby with healthy things (and the occasional Blizzard, which, really, is ice cream, and therefore dairy, and therefore calcium).

I should know more details tomorrow about what my new diet should look like. Total wheat toast count so far today: 4 slices.